If I went to back time when I want to go = If I could turn back time, I would go back when I was twenty years old as freshmen. So I study english very hard and have a lot of date with hansome boy = I could study English very hard and had a lot of dates with handsome boys, also I would go to England to study gardening. The thing as I mentioned, actually I can do now everything, but now, = Actually, I could do all the things I mentioned above now but I don't have confidence. I think that I'm too old and busy to do everything so it is very dificult to me, but it is just an excuse. I don't have courage to start something new. So I start step by step. the first is to study english. = First is to study English. I want to keep my promise too long.